I know they are only dreams, but dayem

I haven't been remembering my dreams as much as I used to. This bothers me, as it was the perfect escape for me, and while I was resting no less!

I bitched and moaned a bit to my psyche over the past week, and well, she delivered a doozer last night. ( not a particularly happy dream, but something to note, no less )

Crack c/o a guy called kwakhed

write your username using song titles --
Point: pick songs that are meaningful to you, or that you like or something... it's supposed to be that you "consist" of this music

Time - Pink Floyd
Here in my Head - Tori Amos
Everybody Knows - Concrete Blonde's cover
Darkness - Peter Gabriel
All There Is - Miranda Sex Garden
Rabbit in Your Headlights - U.N.K.L.E. feat. Thom Yorke
Kiss Them For Me - Siouxsie and the Banshees
Spirit - Dead Can Dance
Ivo - Cocteau Twins
Reverence - Faithless
Empty - Amanda Ghost
Natural One - Funk Implosion

Of course, I could go on and on with this list. Ah well, 'twas fun to do!
( More brain cells down the drain )

The Five Question Game...lost in the masses of e-mail

these are from 31337zeke...

1.) If you could change your name, what name would you pick and why?

I really like my name, honestly. I think about the only thing I would ever change is possibly my middle name and the propensity for people to call me "Dawnee." yeah, that irks the shite outta me!

2.) What one thing in the entire world are you most afraid of?

Handguns.

3.) What is the one decision that you have made in the past that has effected your life the most? Do you feel you made the right decision?

Probably moving back to Ohio from VA after I graduated high school. I think it was the right decision, as it was out of love and worry for my baby sister more than anything. I think about the only thing I truly regret is leaving my high school sweetheart/ first true love behind and losing contact with him over time. I miss him to pieces, even after ten years.

4.) If you could pick an age to be forever, what age would that be? (explain)

*shrugs* I haven't reached an age that falls into the "God, I wish this would last forever! category. Each year I've been alive has brought a new journey, and each one has it's place in life and time for me.

5.) If you had a million dollars, what would you do? (explain)

Quit my job and go to school full-time, pay anyone and everyone back for anything I have borrowed, buy my parents anything they desired, maybe travel all around to see everyone I love who lives far away. I think this is all self-explanatory.

Bonus.) Name the movie that inspired question #5.

Indecent Proposal? I don't know...I don't watch much TV, and can only afford the movies on rare occasions!

Officially unofficially

Beck's song

"Round the Bend"

is
incredibly

heart-breaking.




*sigh!*

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I feel like someone placed a load of bricks on my back all night. I just cannot get motivated for anything.

bleh.

yeah yeah, lack of sleep. See "insomnia."
*sigh!*

You always know it's a Monday when you mourn the loss of a weekend. It wasn't a loss at all, but it has passed, and tomorrow will never be like yesterday.

I feel like I could ramble off a thousand crytpic wisdoms if given the chance to speak to someone right now. Instead, I think I might stay quiet unless someone speaks to me first today. A test of my will, although staying awake might be just as much a test.

( another dream )

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I love it when my days directly contradict my hor(ror)scopes. I was supposed to have a day where I felt like I could take on the world...I suppose I could, but for now I feel like poo.

Got to class late, as was to be expected. Mrs. Marelli HATES me! I swear! It's the first class I have had so much trouble with, and I am certain it will drag my GPA down when all is said and done.

I don't know what it is...the hunger, the drive, it's just missing. A year ago you couldn't stop me from studying, from focusing on my schoolwork. Now, I am just tired, longing for the invisible *something* that will not reveal itself to me. I don't know what it is, not at all...how does this madness work? Wanting, needing something somewhere...you just know It exists, but it's all based in emotion and senses.

I walked from class with Rich and we passed by this semester's Crush. I decided to be brave, to say hello and ask how he was doing. He looked at me like I was a nutjob, said,"Fine," lowered his eyes and kept walking. This is precisely what I meant by not reading people correctly the other day. I mean, we throw glances back and forth, lower eyes in embarassment, etc.

I am no good at games, board or otherwise.

I am not competitive, not in the sportly sense of the word anyway. (s)karaoke is about the only thing I am competitive at, and I find it even more fun when I have good competition. Segue into tonight, when I should do a thousand other things...I think may head up to Bounce. Rich says they have a (s)karaoke contest on Monday nights, although it is based solely on popularity; The winner is chosen through applause.

I told him if I finish my homework and do everything I am supposed to do. Silly limits I set for myself, and am often disappointed by these days.

Sitting in the little cafe, Java City, drinking the worst chai I have ever tasted on my tongue. I wanted something comforting, and Rich offered to treat me. He went to pick up his honey from work, I stayed here, listening to probably the best bootleg of a movie I have ever seen. Yup, some kid convinced the coffee lady, Joan, to watch a movie on the TV down here. It's a great bootleg though. Underworld. Nice form indeed.

Oh, and sorry to have taken so long but here is an answer for poliwitch: I would totally save the kitty. I may be allergic, but I am not cruel (well, not to animals, anyway.Of course, that depends on your definition!~;)

I am still in a good mood, just kinda bummed out about some things I don't feel very confident in.If anyone is willing to give me a swift kick i the arse, or has ever wanted to in general, now would be a good time.

OK, I think I am going to join the heathens and watch Underworld until it is time for choir.

In other news...

YOU should go bare witness to absolute wisdom and go ask wraptboy a question & see his new kick-ass user icon!



fuckin' rabbits....tee!hee!

HA!

OK kiddies...

I was good and finished all my homework.

Going to Bounce for Karaoke...anyone else wanna come?
Starts at 10:30...come! Watch me kick some queenie-ass!!!
~8D

This is going to be too damn fun!