jeezum crow...

[thedarksiren2]

still organizing, packing, cleaning, figuring, drinking coffee instead of taking a nap. I've thrown out so much crap...wow.

More of a wow, the things I have come across during the course of the day. Memories amok, some good, some heartbreaking in very significant ways.

I said out loud, "I really should just learn to throw boxes away when I haven't opened them in over a year."

And then, I slide the box back under the bed for the next year.
And for the dust bunnies.
They are taking over the room.
seriously.

***

Last night was a bunch of fun. I was able to see many people that, had there not been parties and things, I would not have had the chance to see and hug & say goodbye to.

btw...because my brain is scattery-suede right now and I shoulda/ coulda done this as an entirely separate post perhaps, BUT...this is how it's going to go, which I think is OK, since people have claimed they are going to "lay low" for a while.

HaPpEeE bIrFeNdAyEeE
android23
&
annabelevil!!!

I hope that the hours pass with ease
and hearts and feelings and minds mend
within that time as well.

Try to enjoy your days
Remember the good...it feels better when you do.
~8)

++++

So yeah, EDT is prevailing
I am taking a break from the dust and insanity that is me leaving Cleveland.
I don't know that it will happen tonight as planned, but no one is holding me to a schedule anyway, right? Who cares???

*shrugs*

*sighs*

I had a lot of fun last night, yup yup.
Had my worries, watched madness and sadness and laughter and babble and soliloques and O Brother, Where Art Thou? I met some really fantastic people, and was lost in the catharsis of the night overall.

My most chocolate-peeps were with me. It was good.
More good people came along, and made it even more worthwhile.
The music was complete sisrahtac, both for the dancing (man, was that basement HOT!!!) as well as for the singing. I knew it would be for the latter...had lots to get out of my system last night - have for a few weeks now, and singing is the best outlet for that kind of build-up in me.

Truth be told, I don't care what or why it happened.
I am sad for the birthday people, and even more sad for the hostesses, octobreea and ciani, who both put so much into the night. Everything looked and tasted wonderful, ladies! You both deserve much applause for your hard work and kindness...it did not go unnoticed!

Yeah, that's all I have to say about all that.

Well, no. I take it back.

(((HUGZ!)))

to all of you, because everyone is good and means well, really. Alcohol, anger, confusion, and good intentions get slurred worse than speech in late-night discombobulation. I hope everyone recoops without much damage to their spirits, or friendships for that matter.

It's all about being human
and recognizing the humanity of others
and perhaps finding the courage to face the reflection of ourselves
in those around us.

Or maybe I am tired and talking out my arse.
I dunno...

I just hope all ends well.

Thank you to everyone for a wonderful last night in Cleveland, especially wraptboy, bindrune, andragon (you are such a beautiful creature...we need more time, definitely!), tiktiktok, tete6871 (you have cake in Jawndomay...we stoled it for ya!~;D Maybe your cakiance will bring it to you later~8), bladernr (you're such a smooth and sly host...I am really glad I got to see you and the li'l lady before I left!), octobreea and ciani for being fabulous coordinators and hostesses, android23, off and vertical_lock (AKA Missile Command) for letting me sing with you & enjoy your company and creativity and boxer shorts~;)

I have other thanks to a buncha other people, but I really need to get back to what I was doing. BTW...it was nice meeting you, lazarus_phantom. Thank you for all your kind words and for the picture...I hope you'll post it openly so I can see too!~8)

OK, have a good night everyone.
I am back to getting my life together, literally.

Comments

[octobreea.livejournal.com]

thank you dawn for coming out. thanks for singing too. such a beautiful voice.

i feel horrible, absolutely horrible that people left angry, sad, hurt... nothing i can do about it though so i'm just going to let it go.

hope to see you again some day. ♥

Better late than never, I guess

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

I had a really good time at the party, and I know at least I, as well as the people I came with (wraptboy, bindrune, tiktiktok, and andragon) left in a good mood, sans worrying about you and the troubles you were having.

I will be back up off and on throughout the coming months, particularly to perform with Missile Command and to sing at batty_'s wedding, so I will definitely see you soon enough!

Take care of you, hon!

[tete6871.livejournal.com]

i heard i had cake! :) thank you guys! thank you for everything!!!

and yes, we don't when we will see each other again, but i love road trips and we have computers...so we will be keeping in touch!!! no fret my little love button ;)

at least i didn't cling to ur ankles ;)

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Did you ever get your cake, btw? If not, I say you bug the crap outta wraptboy and have him make you a chocolate-cake! It truly is delightful!

I will see you soon, I'm sure. I am not too worried about it...it's only ten weeks, right?

And thank you for not grabbing onto my ankles...they're really not my strongest body parts!

[annabelevil.livejournal.com]

Thank you dawn..and you are right..I am just trying to think how wonderful everything was before all the fights happened.

You are such a beautiful person...and there are talks of a road trip to come see you at school one of these days..:)

Thank you for the birthday wishes ...they mean so much.

xo

belated, but better than never, I s'pose!

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Well, I think for the vast majority of people, it was a very good time and a fantastic party. What happened near the end was between those parties involved, and I know that, as bad as I felt for the people involved, it really had little to no impact on how the night was viewed by me or my companions for the evening (wraptboy, bindrune, tiktiktok and andragon) as we left. In fact, the conversations on the ride home were mostly about how much fun we'd all had.

No worries...and thank you for your sweet words. I hope you had a wonderful birfendayee despite all this madness!

And yes! Feel free to come visit...although, to be totally honest, it might be wise to stay at a hotel or something...did I mention my dorm is a closet with a closet???~;P

Take care of you!

[ex-caleea.livejournal.com]

I was in Angie's bedroom, consoling the poor dog and kitten (who were freaking out by the loud noises) when you were singing, however, I could hear you perfectly clear through the floor, and you were just AWESOME!!!!

Oh how soprano voices make me *swooooon* ... *giggle*

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

muchas thankies!!!

Poor doggies!!!
You are too sweet.
~8)

[ciani.livejournal.com]

you were indeed wonderful last night and I'm very glad you could come. And yes, we're talking about braving athens to come see you :D

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

thank you, hon. OMG your jello shots were INSANELY STRONG!!! LOL I had to aviod them after eating two, being the designated driver and shtuff, but WOWZA!!!

I hope you all do come out sometime. It'll be nice to have company sometime. But, like I told annabelevil, you all may want to get a hotel...my room is very small.~{8/

[ciani.livejournal.com]

no problem :) I remember what dorm rooms are like

[lazarus-phantom.livejournal.com]

hey hey! i got a shout out!

you truely do have a beautiful voice. i know you hear that quite often, but it's nice to know that it's true isn't it? i've always had an ear for female vocalists, and i absoultely love when a women sings haunting opera. just wonderful.

okay, so now that your face is red or you are rolling your eyes, i should tell you that i added you. i will post that picture most likely as soon as i return home to New York. have a good night, and please infrom me of anything you have going on musically, i would love to hear it. :)

belated returns...~;P

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Of course you did! You were one of the nicest people I spoke to all night, not to mention the calm you seemed to bring to some of the people who were in need of it. I always appreciate other calming people...~8)

Oh, and it's still blushing, thank you.~8) I hear it after shows and shtuff, and always appreciate anything anyone has to say about how I've done. I actually recorded that show on a shitty li'l hand-held recorder and can hear some of my own failings... it's that whole thing about being our own worst critic, ya know ~;) Anyway, THANK YOU for all your compliments. They truly are taken with humility and grace.

I don't usually do this, but you kinda asked so...some of my other shtuff that I have recorded is on myspace.com, should you want to hear it. The first song was recorded over the summer with Subliminal Self, the others a couple years ago with Lestat and Payle. Anyway, you can go here (http://www.myspace.com/dawn) if you want to. I wish I had "FTS Beta 9" up (that's the name of the song I did with Missile Command, in case you're like, "WTF is she talking about???"), but I do not, so yeah.

:::stops typing and blushes more as she carries on with her evening:::

P.s.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

In case you didn't notice, I added you back.
Hope you had fun on all your travels, and return(ed?) home safely!

[mbtm.livejournal.com]

*confused look*
Wait.
That was you?

I was the one that came up to you and said: "You have a great voice. I almost cried."

...or something to that effect...

...wow...!!

Nice to put a face to an LJ name eh?

-Scott(Mr IndustrialPants aka...the guy with the Decepticon T on)

mmyup. that was me!

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

heh. I remember you walking up to me, but I had no idea that was *you* either! LOL Indeed, a nice way to put two and two together! ~8D

Well, it was nice to finally meet you, Mr. Scott!

I am now down in Athens OH, so I may be heading over to your town to visit every so often. Maybe we can get coffee if/ when I do? It'd be nie to actually have the connection now! LOL

Re: mmyup. that was me!

[mbtm.livejournal.com]

"I am now down in Athens OH, so I may be heading over to your town to visit every so often. Maybe we can get coffee if/ when I do? It'd be nie to actually have the connection now! LOL"

I would be delighted.

I DJ at Fusion dance club every Friday.
Ladies in free before midnight.
$2 for college students.

You should come out *tries to do Jedi mind trick*

Re: mmyup. that was me!

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

HA HA

I would *love* to come out this weekend, but alas, I have no money for the old gas tank. Soon though...very soon.

OH! duh...:::smacks head:::

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your compliments. It brings me strange delight, knowing I can bring people to tears with my singing. Means all that hard work hasn't been for nothing!

Seriously...thank you.
~8)