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thedarksiren2Got a bit tipsy at Lincoln Park Pub last night. I have decided that I cannot play pool any longer. I just suck, which is terrible. I used to be good at the game, like, I'd whip some serious arse, especially if I had a few drinks in me. May sound crazy, but it's like my brain opens some vortex and I can see the geometry at work. I can still see it when inebriated, but it matters not. I suck at billiards, period.
Heh, who am I kidding?
I am still going to play, because I am a masochist like that.~;)
Been a day of half-assed ideas. Well, no. I take that back. I posted the thinger from My Space earlier, the one about stopping Bush. Admittedly, I was kinda bummed not more people said anything, and the two who did, both to whom I am grateful for voicing their opinions btw~8), were completely pessimistic. Now, don't get me wrong, politics are not clean and pretty and pure, and honestly, they're one of my least favorite subjects, ever. I am, admittedly, not very well educated in politics, and have, for the most part, never taken any part in them. The thing is, I know of so many people that will be affected by this next election very directly if Bush wins again. I am not delusional, I realize the trixie nature of the whole system, but at the same time, I have hope inside.
And that's just it. I have hope. Hope that things will change in a positive way, be it in the nation as a whole or simply in my own little life. The problem I see, particularly over the past few months, is the propensity to view changes as ends. The only person who has said anything optimistic and positive recently was![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
icariancypher. I told him of both the positives and the negatives of moving to Athens OH. He said it sounded like a new adventure.
New.
Renewal.
Rebirth.
Transformation.
Change.
New beginnings.
etc.
Is the cup half-empty for us here? It may be, and the water left over may become stagnant and pungent and fill our souls with filth and disgust. But like I tell staff at the group home, if you see it needs done, don't assume someone else is going to do take care of the situation; you are just as responsible and capable of making a difference.
This whole idea touches on a great many areas, certainly not just politics. As I said before, they aren't my favorite subject.
So I am holding this cup, and I don't know how to look into it.
Better yet, I am looking into it, observing it, pondering...
how do I wish to see this? The entire picture?
Is it half-empty, or half-full?
Is it simply the middle, complacency,
and will I grow old and bored more quickly as a result?
I am aching to believe that the cup is half-full, and therefore much easier to fill up. This is why I made a choice to be a part of something amazing come June.wraptboy managed to drag me to MOCA this afternoon to see the new exhibits. While we were there, we saw a fun exhibit by Spencer Tunick, several large photographs of hundreds of nude people piled around/ on top of/ beside, etc. one another. The photographs are wonderful, and people of all shapes, sizes, colors are involved.
He is planning a shoot here in Cleveland in June. As of this afternoon, I have signed up to be a part of his next installation. Anyone else who would like to come get naked with me ~8) can sign up here. The woman at MOCA said they already have well over a thousand participants for the Cleveland shoot, so it should be an extraordinary experience. The bonus? All participants get a print of the photograph.
I am surrounded by misery these days. I find myself struggling to keep my optimism healthy. The realism is more prevalent somehow, and in this reality, people hate their lives, but wish to do nothing to improve them other than bitch and groan and mope about.
See Smokey the Bear, please.
*sigh*
All in all, I feel incredibly dull anymore.
Both literally, as well as figuratively, speaking.
I want to travel more, to live and to breathe more deeply. I want my relationships to be strong once again. I feel withdrawn, with the exception of a remote few people. I am not unhappy with these few, and adore them with all my heart. I just...I don't know.
Time to go write a song and continue with my weekend of cleaning.
I don't think I'll be going anywhere unless it is to get food.
The world has created a very melancholy me today.
Heh, who am I kidding?
I am still going to play, because I am a masochist like that.~;)
Been a day of half-assed ideas. Well, no. I take that back. I posted the thinger from My Space earlier, the one about stopping Bush. Admittedly, I was kinda bummed not more people said anything, and the two who did, both to whom I am grateful for voicing their opinions btw~8), were completely pessimistic. Now, don't get me wrong, politics are not clean and pretty and pure, and honestly, they're one of my least favorite subjects, ever. I am, admittedly, not very well educated in politics, and have, for the most part, never taken any part in them. The thing is, I know of so many people that will be affected by this next election very directly if Bush wins again. I am not delusional, I realize the trixie nature of the whole system, but at the same time, I have hope inside.
And that's just it. I have hope. Hope that things will change in a positive way, be it in the nation as a whole or simply in my own little life. The problem I see, particularly over the past few months, is the propensity to view changes as ends. The only person who has said anything optimistic and positive recently was
icariancypher. I told him of both the positives and the negatives of moving to Athens OH. He said it sounded like a new adventure.New.
Renewal.
Rebirth.
Transformation.
Change.
New beginnings.
etc.
Is the cup half-empty for us here? It may be, and the water left over may become stagnant and pungent and fill our souls with filth and disgust. But like I tell staff at the group home, if you see it needs done, don't assume someone else is going to do take care of the situation; you are just as responsible and capable of making a difference.
This whole idea touches on a great many areas, certainly not just politics. As I said before, they aren't my favorite subject.
So I am holding this cup, and I don't know how to look into it.
Better yet, I am looking into it, observing it, pondering...
how do I wish to see this? The entire picture?
Is it half-empty, or half-full?
Is it simply the middle, complacency,
and will I grow old and bored more quickly as a result?
I am aching to believe that the cup is half-full, and therefore much easier to fill up. This is why I made a choice to be a part of something amazing come June.
wraptboy managed to drag me to MOCA this afternoon to see the new exhibits. While we were there, we saw a fun exhibit by Spencer Tunick, several large photographs of hundreds of nude people piled around/ on top of/ beside, etc. one another. The photographs are wonderful, and people of all shapes, sizes, colors are involved. He is planning a shoot here in Cleveland in June. As of this afternoon, I have signed up to be a part of his next installation. Anyone else who would like to come get naked with me ~8) can sign up here. The woman at MOCA said they already have well over a thousand participants for the Cleveland shoot, so it should be an extraordinary experience. The bonus? All participants get a print of the photograph.
I am surrounded by misery these days. I find myself struggling to keep my optimism healthy. The realism is more prevalent somehow, and in this reality, people hate their lives, but wish to do nothing to improve them other than bitch and groan and mope about.
See Smokey the Bear, please.
*sigh*
All in all, I feel incredibly dull anymore.
Both literally, as well as figuratively, speaking.
I want to travel more, to live and to breathe more deeply. I want my relationships to be strong once again. I feel withdrawn, with the exception of a remote few people. I am not unhappy with these few, and adore them with all my heart. I just...I don't know.
Time to go write a song and continue with my weekend of cleaning.
I don't think I'll be going anywhere unless it is to get food.
The world has created a very melancholy me today.
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Date: 2004-04-09 05:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-10 07:14 am (UTC)I understand why you didn't, and would be a total hypocrite if I was bitchy with you for not replying. I am generally very quiet when it comes to politics, because, as I said initially, I am not well educated in them, although I am trying my best to stay informed this election. If I can spread the information, empower people in any way (and this goes far beyond politics, mind you), then I am going to do what I can.
It's all good though. The fact that people didn't reply wasn't really what upset me.
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Date: 2004-04-09 06:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-10 07:14 am (UTC)the familure unfamilure
Date: 2004-04-12 06:01 am (UTC)i think his work is provocative but thoughtfully pushes the envelope ... but me getting naked, i'm too much of a wuss! but best of luck and knock em’ dead for me!
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Date: 2004-04-09 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-10 07:16 am (UTC)Ok. i have several things to say
Date: 2004-04-09 09:07 pm (UTC)2) i'm the same way when it comes to bowling. i'm pretty good when i have a few drinks in me. i think it's because you rely on what your body knows already and therefore you don't overanalyze.
3) Athens, Ohio= BAD IDEA!!! i just got home from there. 4 years of my life in Athens, Ohio was enough to make me appreciate Cleveland. instant message or email me and we'll chat about it.