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dv8productions, bigjohnsinging, Alexis, Heather and my dad for coming out and suffering through the (s)karaoke contest with me. Your presence meant so damn much, really it did.
Secondly, I didn't get into the final round, which I knew would be the case. I broke some basic rules I usually use for karaoke contests, and well, it wasn't meant to be. Whatever. I can handle losing.
Thirdly, and I am saying this not because I didn't win, but because I am still in awe. I mean, I don't mind "losing" to talented people, but there were at least three women up there who had no business even being in the semi-finals, let alone going on to the final round! More than a few people made the comment that someone was sucking someone's cock...I vaguely recall a lady telling me the judges must like lips with stretch-marks. Oh yeah, all about the podunk! wuddah-wuddah hoo!
So I left with a few thoughts about the situation, amused, both by the situation as well as a few others that came up as a result of it. I also left remembering that my "style" is opera, not pop. I have been so distracted, depressed, PMS-ridden...all of these distract and harm my singing ability. I lost control of my voice several times tonight, sang a song with a big break in the middle, and had easily some of the worst stage-fright I have experienced in a very long time. I wasn't prepared when he called me...the list of reasons I did not make it in tonight are pretty endless. I then realized that my life is crawling back into it's chrysalis, and I just need to be OK with that change. It is inevitable, and necessary for me to succeed.
Then I come home and find
Your Daily Horoscope for November 29, 2003
Dear DAWN,
If you are a woman who is artistic, this won't be the best period you have ever had, DAWN. You are surely aware of this. But this is a profound period, nevertheless. If you are currently in a development phase, it is taking place on the inside. This kind of development doesn't follow the same laws as the kind that takes place on the outside; it's slow and subtle and doesn't take form right away. Frustrating, but ultimately fruitful.
Sometimes these things are so dead-on, it freaks the fook outta me.
Of course, now I am wide-awake and it's 3:38 in the morning and I have nothing to do, no one to talk to. Bitch, moan, blah blah blah...
life is good, really.
Just different.
dv8productions, bigjohnsinging, Alexis, Heather and my dad for coming out and suffering through the (s)karaoke contest with me. Your presence meant so damn much, really it did. Secondly, I didn't get into the final round, which I knew would be the case. I broke some basic rules I usually use for karaoke contests, and well, it wasn't meant to be. Whatever. I can handle losing.
Thirdly, and I am saying this not because I didn't win, but because I am still in awe. I mean, I don't mind "losing" to talented people, but there were at least three women up there who had no business even being in the semi-finals, let alone going on to the final round! More than a few people made the comment that someone was sucking someone's cock...I vaguely recall a lady telling me the judges must like lips with stretch-marks. Oh yeah, all about the podunk! wuddah-wuddah hoo!
So I left with a few thoughts about the situation, amused, both by the situation as well as a few others that came up as a result of it. I also left remembering that my "style" is opera, not pop. I have been so distracted, depressed, PMS-ridden...all of these distract and harm my singing ability. I lost control of my voice several times tonight, sang a song with a big break in the middle, and had easily some of the worst stage-fright I have experienced in a very long time. I wasn't prepared when he called me...the list of reasons I did not make it in tonight are pretty endless. I then realized that my life is crawling back into it's chrysalis, and I just need to be OK with that change. It is inevitable, and necessary for me to succeed.
Then I come home and find
Your Daily Horoscope for November 29, 2003
Dear DAWN,
If you are a woman who is artistic, this won't be the best period you have ever had, DAWN. You are surely aware of this. But this is a profound period, nevertheless. If you are currently in a development phase, it is taking place on the inside. This kind of development doesn't follow the same laws as the kind that takes place on the outside; it's slow and subtle and doesn't take form right away. Frustrating, but ultimately fruitful.
Sometimes these things are so dead-on, it freaks the fook outta me.
Of course, now I am wide-awake and it's 3:38 in the morning and I have nothing to do, no one to talk to. Bitch, moan, blah blah blah...
life is good, really.
Just different.
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Date: 2003-11-29 12:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-29 11:01 am (UTC)out of ten winners picked you weren't one of them, bullshit.
you got ripped off
yes, i believe somebody, especially the dixie chick singing bimbo was offering a little sumpin' sumpin'. after all the 1st prize is $1000 and the second prize $500.
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Date: 2003-11-29 11:56 am (UTC)I really thought that the red head and Kelly, the girl in the big black coat, were very talented vocally. But yeah, neither had the performance down at all. Makes me wish I had just stood there lol
oh well...I got to spend time with friends and had a good time overall. I know Alexis was really unhappy...please tell her thank you for me. I cannot express that enough.