I should not ask so many questions

[thedarksiren2]

The last line of my last post read:

Dare I say that my dreams were just my fears caving in on my psyche? It would seem...

I am so damn FOOLISH!
Such a fool! To think twice about what Ia m told in my dreams!

I was actually having a good day, had a mind to sit with the residents and watch the sunset over coffee. I was about to do so, when I got a call from wraptboy.

Bats has died.

Dumb ass dog! He could never fucking figure out that cars were bad, dangerous...we tried to teach him...hell, he couldn't figure anything out. Not potty, not sit, not cars...Jesus.

And I am still stuck here, at work, helpless, sad, tearfully leaking everywhere.

Bless Cheryl's heart. She's the other staff on tonight. She saw me crying, asked what was wrong, and has since been in-charge for me while I try to pass meds and keep moving.

Fucking dog. God!

(((HUGZ!))) wraptboy...I hope you are OK. It's not your fault...he just got out, and was an ass.

stygmameshe...please do not say anything to Veil about this yet. I want to tell him, and shall do so tonight when I get home. He's gonna be so sad.

Hell, I am sad.
This is a sad, sad day...Memorial day...what is that? Irony?

Sad sad sad
Goodnight, Bats.

We loved you, lots.

Comments

[celestialsparks.livejournal.com]

dear god. *hugs* i'm sorry sweetie. peace be with you and wraptboy and with bats up there in doggie heaven.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
I hope your trip home went safely and without incident.

[jjjiii]

That fucking sucks!!!

I'm so sorry... I got to meet the little guy, and he was such a character. I'll miss him... :((((

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your thoughts.
Umm, I know you got a couple of pix of him while you were over here. Do you think we could put them on disc or something like that? I know they were a li'l hazy, but we want the memories regardless if you can offer them.

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[jjjiii]

Check here for one... I had a few others but not the time to put them online. I will later tonight when I get home from work, though.

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[jjjiii]

Here you go...

And a few pictures of the cat so he doesn't get jealous.

Oh my god

[digitylgoddess.livejournal.com]

I know what it's like to lose a pet; they're family...oh, man.

I am so sorry for your loss...yours and wraptboy's.

((((hugs))))

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[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you, hon.
(((HUGZ!)))

[bindrune.livejournal.com]

wraptboy and i hung out at edgewater and talked. this sucks.
*huge hugs*
i'm here if you guys want to get lost in a movie or whatever tonight. i'll call tomorrow also.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

I told him to call you and go watch the sunset, actually. I am glad he did so. I wish I could have been there as well.

We tried to get lost in a movie, but i started to fall asleep, exhausted from tears and talk and finding pictures, lighting my memory candle...it's been very solemn here. Strange, to have that in Jawndomay, so all-encompassing anyway.

We have plans tonight, some of which I am sure you are aware, at least to a degree. I need to get in touch with a few people, but we'll call you later, I'm sure.

Thanks for taking care of wraptboy when i could not be there for him.
(((HUGZ!)))

[theshadowsfall.livejournal.com]

I am terribly sorry to hear about Bats. If you need a shoulder to cry i=on. give me a call

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you, hon. I appreciate the offer. Of course, I leaked about as much as I could at work last night, but who knows. Tonight may bring more tears...I'll be at work, of course, but I'll keep your shoulders in my head and mayhaps pretend if I need to.

Thank you.

[http://users.livejournal.com/batty_/]

oh god. i am so sorry :( hugs to you and the wraptboy

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Hugs are good now...

[ravenskuld.livejournal.com]

*hug* i am sad for your loss. i pray you heal quickly.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Too bad it's not December, eh?

I know, that was bad.
*sigh!*

Thank you for your prayers.

[sharpshinyclaws.livejournal.com]

Honey, I am very very very sorry.
I don't think there's much else to say.
Call me if you'd like to throw bottles?

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

You know, leave it to you to get me to smile when I don't want to! LOL

When I was a teen, and all kindsa miserable, I would go under bridges with bottles and anything that smashed well and loudly and just throw them till my arm was sore. It was great.

I appreciate the offer, and the trigger to my memories.
Thank you.

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[sharpshinyclaws.livejournal.com]

:)

[avatar-x.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry for you both.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your sympathies.
Jawndomay is so strange right now.
So very strange.

[stygmameshe.livejournal.com]

No problem - I was going to say that I think you should be the one to tell Veil about Bats.

I am deeply sorry and sad about this. My Prayers go out to both you and wraptboy

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

I spoke with Veil last night. He got mad at first, wanted to know what happened...quick-react. I explained that he just got out, and that was that. We are trying to figure out a proper goodbye for later tonight...poor Veil. He is just so heartbroken, and wraptboy and I both feel horribly guilty, like he is probably regretting having given him to us or something. i dunno. It's hard not to be self-degrading when you have dreams that warn you, question them, when Bats was so fragile, all love and bones, you know?

*sigh!*

It's just too damn quiet here now.
Even the bird is quiet and still.

[zeldachik.livejournal.com]

hugs and sympathy to the denizens of Jawndomay.

And piles of nastiness to inconsiderate tremont tourist traffic. (I lost my kitty Bela on West 10th a few years back the same way).

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Bless your heart, sweetie! LOL
It didn't happen at home, actually. It happened at wraptboy's work in Walton Hills. Bats had plenty of room to run and be the wacky dog that he is, but he just ran down the long drive to the street. Only thing I hope is that he didn't feel it.

I am sorry Tremont stole your kitty.
Our kitty, Sebastian, cried when wraptboy brought Bats home last night...she knew. That was her dog, and she was his cat. They loved each other so much.

Anyway, thank you for the thoughts.

[zeldachik.livejournal.com]

Oh oh oh... give hugs to Sebastian, then too. Empathy has its downside, even for kitties.

(& i still loathe tourist traffic, it was really bad with greekfest this past weekend, that's why i assumed.)

[laneybee.livejournal.com]

***HUGE HUGS***

SOOOO sorry to read about Bats

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Thanx for the hugs.

[laliari.livejournal.com]

***big hugs***
i'm so sorry.