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bindrune for a bit Tuesday night. I miss her company sometimes, but damn if iI am not happy as hell for her and draganfly - it's always nice to see people so happy with one another. Anyway, we just talked while I finished some homework. bindrune mowed on some hot fudge chocolate brownie a la mode (AKA massive pile o' decadence!) while I treated myself to some peanut butter and chocolate pie.
Wednesday was great. Went to school, got a bit more frazzled with the theory shtuff, but all in all it was a productive day.
I am working on this really dark French lullaby and an incredibly haunting art song...I love them both tremendously! OMG And Janine is just tickled to death that I am singing the art song ("Do Not Go My Love" - by Hageman), especially since I have worked so damn hard on my upper register and never really utilized it until this.
In as much as I am absolutely exhausted, what with all the working and schooling and rehearsals, deaths and babies (congratulations BTW,zereal and bloodluszt!), and the ever-ominous insomnia,etc., I am in really good spirits. I wasn't last week, but I don't think anyone was really - just too much craziness in the world, in every and all aspects. Not to say it was all bad, just overwhelming.
Today was great though. School, thenlove_power came over and we went for a joy ride of sorts, chatting about a million things all at once (it's so nice to know people whose brains fly all over the place too!) and it was all so refreshing from my typical routine. The number three appeared a number of times..the clock in Lakewood read 3:33P.M., duped 3X, felt the haunting gleam of an antilope's glare while eating exotic meats and finding them incredible. The conversation got more and more amusing as we both entered into loopy-sleep-deprivation + food coma mode, and we ate until we both about burst.
Oh, and ostrich is a cross between cube steak and chocolate mousse, I have decided. Strange, almost stringy textured, but soft and incredibly rich, almost to the point of melting in your mouth.
It was so nice to just spend some time alone with someone. I get so little one-on-one time with anyone anymore, not even my own roommate! Sadly, we could not make it to a field for a cat-nap in the breezy sunlight in time, and I had to get back to Tri-C for the musical rehearsal, which wound up being a big waste of time, to my chagrin. I would have much rather remained in the company of a friend, watching clouds roll by and talking about any and everything I have no opportunity to talk about ever anymore.
oh, the choices and the consequences thereof.
So I left there kind annoyed, knowing that I could have been much more productive or better, hung out with my friend longer. I decided to hit Corky's for karaoke while I read some chapters in my book. The crowd was weird, although I mebigjohnsinging's new girlie, who has such a sultry, rich voice...men should melt like chocolate in a child's palm when they hear her, omg! And she's gorgeous to boot! Way to go!!!~;)
he then told me thatskeletonking was not well...I kept her in my thoughts though, and hope that she is well.
A familiar face came in near the end, this guy Brian whom I met back when I was DJing at TYR. We just BS'd, and then I got called up to sing. By the end of the night, he asked me if I would be willing to sing some tracks for him. I don't know how far that will go, but I took down his number anyway. Who knows, maybe my cynicism regarding bands asking me to sing with them will be nullified, and he will follow through!~;P
Anyway, been doing this friendster thing, right? It's kinda fun, met some neat people on it, noticed some familiar faces. What can I say, it's the only place to talk with people at 4AM when insomnia is my worst enemy. Well, that and IM (more happy-thoughts tolove_power for the conversations!). BUT, I have met some really neat people on it too, so it seems like it is serving its purpose for me.
In other news, Rome is almost here - very close.
*bounce*
Suor Angelica is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined!
Work is killing me, but my new house manager is wonderful, and in spite of the exhaustion, I am thrilled she is there now instead of the coach.
Oh, and just to brush upon the absurdity in my life, people amaze me with their absolute audacity and ignorance. As my best friend Amy in VA once said, "Get life! Get a brain! get a moo!!!"
In other words, think about your words, past, present, future. Consider how they have, can, will and do affect those whom you associate with, and then understand why I have cut all contacts. It really isn't that hard to comprehend, when/ if you (choose to) stop and think.
When a person chooses to insult me, cruelly and needlessly, it simply reminds me how foolish I am sometimes, allowing people into my life, trusting and believing their words without a doubt, and extending kindness to them without expectation other than that they be frank with me from the get-go, as I am with them, and just be a friend.
But it also helps me to reflect, to remember that without my more trusting nature and willingness to take the risk of befriending someone, I would not know some of the most extraordinary people in existence. And this instance I am speaking of, it revealed to me the true nature of several people I know, and although I am sad for one truth (possibly even two), I am grateful and humbled incredibly by the nature of the third. I am very fortunate to have the friends that I do, which simply overrides the need to work on relationships that have proved themselves to be fruitless and demeaning. Not to mention I just know better, and hate wasting time on fodder.
:::side-thought: Green is such an amusing color.:::
So yeah, thank you for the clarity, but with all due respect - which might be arguable, but I am feeling rather diplomatic right now...
go away now. please.
Thank you.
Drive-thru.
bindrune for a bit Tuesday night. I miss her company sometimes, but damn if iI am not happy as hell for her and draganfly - it's always nice to see people so happy with one another. Anyway, we just talked while I finished some homework. bindrune mowed on some hot fudge chocolate brownie a la mode (AKA massive pile o' decadence!) while I treated myself to some peanut butter and chocolate pie.Wednesday was great. Went to school, got a bit more frazzled with the theory shtuff, but all in all it was a productive day.
I am working on this really dark French lullaby and an incredibly haunting art song...I love them both tremendously! OMG And Janine is just tickled to death that I am singing the art song ("Do Not Go My Love" - by Hageman), especially since I have worked so damn hard on my upper register and never really utilized it until this.
In as much as I am absolutely exhausted, what with all the working and schooling and rehearsals, deaths and babies (congratulations BTW,
zereal and bloodluszt!), and the ever-ominous insomnia,etc., I am in really good spirits. I wasn't last week, but I don't think anyone was really - just too much craziness in the world, in every and all aspects. Not to say it was all bad, just overwhelming.Today was great though. School, then
love_power came over and we went for a joy ride of sorts, chatting about a million things all at once (it's so nice to know people whose brains fly all over the place too!) and it was all so refreshing from my typical routine. The number three appeared a number of times..the clock in Lakewood read 3:33P.M., duped 3X, felt the haunting gleam of an antilope's glare while eating exotic meats and finding them incredible. The conversation got more and more amusing as we both entered into loopy-sleep-deprivation + food coma mode, and we ate until we both about burst.Oh, and ostrich is a cross between cube steak and chocolate mousse, I have decided. Strange, almost stringy textured, but soft and incredibly rich, almost to the point of melting in your mouth.
It was so nice to just spend some time alone with someone. I get so little one-on-one time with anyone anymore, not even my own roommate! Sadly, we could not make it to a field for a cat-nap in the breezy sunlight in time, and I had to get back to Tri-C for the musical rehearsal, which wound up being a big waste of time, to my chagrin. I would have much rather remained in the company of a friend, watching clouds roll by and talking about any and everything I have no opportunity to talk about ever anymore.
oh, the choices and the consequences thereof.
So I left there kind annoyed, knowing that I could have been much more productive or better, hung out with my friend longer. I decided to hit Corky's for karaoke while I read some chapters in my book. The crowd was weird, although I me
bigjohnsinging's new girlie, who has such a sultry, rich voice...men should melt like chocolate in a child's palm when they hear her, omg! And she's gorgeous to boot! Way to go!!!~;)he then told me that
skeletonking was not well...I kept her in my thoughts though, and hope that she is well. A familiar face came in near the end, this guy Brian whom I met back when I was DJing at TYR. We just BS'd, and then I got called up to sing. By the end of the night, he asked me if I would be willing to sing some tracks for him. I don't know how far that will go, but I took down his number anyway. Who knows, maybe my cynicism regarding bands asking me to sing with them will be nullified, and he will follow through!~;P
Anyway, been doing this friendster thing, right? It's kinda fun, met some neat people on it, noticed some familiar faces. What can I say, it's the only place to talk with people at 4AM when insomnia is my worst enemy. Well, that and IM (more happy-thoughts to
love_power for the conversations!). BUT, I have met some really neat people on it too, so it seems like it is serving its purpose for me.In other news, Rome is almost here - very close.
*bounce*
Suor Angelica is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined!
Work is killing me, but my new house manager is wonderful, and in spite of the exhaustion, I am thrilled she is there now instead of the coach.
Oh, and just to brush upon the absurdity in my life, people amaze me with their absolute audacity and ignorance. As my best friend Amy in VA once said, "Get life! Get a brain! get a moo!!!"
In other words, think about your words, past, present, future. Consider how they have, can, will and do affect those whom you associate with, and then understand why I have cut all contacts. It really isn't that hard to comprehend, when/ if you (choose to) stop and think.
When a person chooses to insult me, cruelly and needlessly, it simply reminds me how foolish I am sometimes, allowing people into my life, trusting and believing their words without a doubt, and extending kindness to them without expectation other than that they be frank with me from the get-go, as I am with them, and just be a friend.
But it also helps me to reflect, to remember that without my more trusting nature and willingness to take the risk of befriending someone, I would not know some of the most extraordinary people in existence. And this instance I am speaking of, it revealed to me the true nature of several people I know, and although I am sad for one truth (possibly even two), I am grateful and humbled incredibly by the nature of the third. I am very fortunate to have the friends that I do, which simply overrides the need to work on relationships that have proved themselves to be fruitless and demeaning. Not to mention I just know better, and hate wasting time on fodder.
:::side-thought: Green is such an amusing color.:::
So yeah, thank you for the clarity, but with all due respect - which might be arguable, but I am feeling rather diplomatic right now...
go away now. please.
Thank you.
Drive-thru.
