One down, two to go...
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thedarksiren2Today was my voice final at Tri-C.
It went very well,actually. I just wasn't as pumped about it as I have been in the past about performing. Too much stress in getting to it, I guess. And it was kind of sad too, because it seemed that everyone else who was doing the recitals was either sick or totally unprepared. I tried to help this one girl sing her song...she was so nervous, apparently hadn't sang it since before the opera scenes thingy a few months back. I knew the song....sang it when I was in high school. So, I sat in the front, mouthing words to her if she seemed to forget. I thought she was going to cry. I told her she did a wonderful job though, big hugz, encouraging her to look forward to showing herself off. She said she felt as though she sucked, but thank you. And she hugged me again, telling me I was her hero.
Strange feeling, when someone tells you you're their hero.
Almost butterflies, almost moths...all kinds of strange and almost nauseating. Or maybe I am just a whacko.
Funny, the first song, which I have been practicing for months, I got totally scared on. The second one, the Handel piece that I just fond my music for yesterday? I aced it...felt like the sweetest kiss falling from my lips upon their ears! And I got my A, with very informative and helpful commentary (ie - constructive criticism) from Mr. Hoffman, whom I've decided has to be gay...no man who is that into music and that attractive could be straight.
And there were friends...![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
poliwitch, bindrune, and taewakan. It was nice having them there, their support. My family couldn't make it up from Stow, and wraptboy went to an Indian's game with digitylgoddess, so I was kind of feeling lonesome.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't felt this lonesome in such a long time, and itfeels totally unwarranted. I don't get me sometimes. I guess I want to go away away. far away. Ireland, Italy ... somewhere...ANYWHERE...road tripping is possible in a few weeks, but that feels so damn far away. And even then, it's still in USA territory. Not that I have seen everything there is to see 'round the USA; I would love to go storm-chasing, or see the Grand Canyon. The idea, however, is to go east, through the coast, down to NOLA eventually. That would be cool, even if I have been there before. I didn't get to see all the sights before, like the swamps and the cemetaries. I guess I am just hungry for something, and I have yet to understand what I am craving so badly.
Does anyone else feel this, or am I just a total loon?
*sigh!*
yeah, but ummm...tomorrow, 7AM (WTF??? Why do people think my brain functions before 9AM???) is my algebra exam. I am wayee nervous about it, but know it will fly by. Numbers, masses and jumbling...egh! I have to remember to go vey slowly, that's all. Any good ju-ju y'all can spare would be much appreciated.
Wednesday = speech final. No biggie there...presentation on sex addiction, make the teacher happy with our knowledge, even if I really still feel as though I want to kill a certain classmate. grr.
And then I am free for the summer, aside from work that is. I think I will probably hunt down all the people who have been claiming they want to use me for their music, and then be done by the time fall semester rolls around.
Planning, planning...rest! OMG, rest!!!!
I cannot wait to sleep in again! *bounce!*
Enough with my rambling...I have homework to do yet!
Blech!
It went very well,actually. I just wasn't as pumped about it as I have been in the past about performing. Too much stress in getting to it, I guess. And it was kind of sad too, because it seemed that everyone else who was doing the recitals was either sick or totally unprepared. I tried to help this one girl sing her song...she was so nervous, apparently hadn't sang it since before the opera scenes thingy a few months back. I knew the song....sang it when I was in high school. So, I sat in the front, mouthing words to her if she seemed to forget. I thought she was going to cry. I told her she did a wonderful job though, big hugz, encouraging her to look forward to showing herself off. She said she felt as though she sucked, but thank you. And she hugged me again, telling me I was her hero.
Strange feeling, when someone tells you you're their hero.
Almost butterflies, almost moths...all kinds of strange and almost nauseating. Or maybe I am just a whacko.
Funny, the first song, which I have been practicing for months, I got totally scared on. The second one, the Handel piece that I just fond my music for yesterday? I aced it...felt like the sweetest kiss falling from my lips upon their ears! And I got my A, with very informative and helpful commentary (ie - constructive criticism) from Mr. Hoffman, whom I've decided has to be gay...no man who is that into music and that attractive could be straight.
And there were friends...
poliwitch, bindrune, and taewakan. It was nice having them there, their support. My family couldn't make it up from Stow, and wraptboy went to an Indian's game with digitylgoddess, so I was kind of feeling lonesome. I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't felt this lonesome in such a long time, and itfeels totally unwarranted. I don't get me sometimes. I guess I want to go away away. far away. Ireland, Italy ... somewhere...ANYWHERE...road tripping is possible in a few weeks, but that feels so damn far away. And even then, it's still in USA territory. Not that I have seen everything there is to see 'round the USA; I would love to go storm-chasing, or see the Grand Canyon. The idea, however, is to go east, through the coast, down to NOLA eventually. That would be cool, even if I have been there before. I didn't get to see all the sights before, like the swamps and the cemetaries. I guess I am just hungry for something, and I have yet to understand what I am craving so badly.
Does anyone else feel this, or am I just a total loon?
*sigh!*
yeah, but ummm...tomorrow, 7AM (WTF??? Why do people think my brain functions before 9AM???) is my algebra exam. I am wayee nervous about it, but know it will fly by. Numbers, masses and jumbling...egh! I have to remember to go vey slowly, that's all. Any good ju-ju y'all can spare would be much appreciated.
Wednesday = speech final. No biggie there...presentation on sex addiction, make the teacher happy with our knowledge, even if I really still feel as though I want to kill a certain classmate. grr.
And then I am free for the summer, aside from work that is. I think I will probably hunt down all the people who have been claiming they want to use me for their music, and then be done by the time fall semester rolls around.
Planning, planning...rest! OMG, rest!!!!
I cannot wait to sleep in again! *bounce!*
Enough with my rambling...I have homework to do yet!
Blech!
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Date: 2002-05-05 09:43 pm (UTC)*giggle*
break your neck tomorrow on your math exam.
(breaking your neck is way more serious than breaking your leg which means a way more serious grade at least this translates well in my mind at 1 am on a monday morning after having a lovely day involving singing beaches melting asia queer as folk conversation tarot reading chocolate peeps and a complete and utter (where that milk comes from as you well know!) lack of drama which we of course all agree is datta pooty and to be avoided at all costs kinda like stepping in dog doo which reminds me i'm glad i'm not bats right about now thank you and good night)
words words words
Ummm....
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Date: 2002-05-06 05:46 am (UTC)You're not a loon, either. You're just on your quest.
I Hear You!
Date: 2002-05-06 06:37 am (UTC)I understand the urge to get away, though. I feel the need almost hourly. *grin*