not sleep, despite attempts *sigh*

[thedarksiren2]

Not that I am particularly sad, but I read this in a guy's blog on myspace.com and thought it to be one of the saddest thoughts I'd ever seen:

"Why do I seek your approval? Why do I feel a need to be validated? It doesn‘t matter how much you validate me or accept me for who I am anyway. I am still going to feel like a piece of uncooked hamburger spoiling in the broken down refrigerator that is hotter than the oven. The maggots of regret are already eating away at the fat on my hamburger mind."

->by Rich or Dick?

I don't know why I felt the need to share it...maybe it's the blatant visual he gave in the description? He's a crass guy, very raw in all his writing. I like reading his stories though. He was one of the first people I met on MS, and continues to be one of the more interesting characters I've met online period.

in the meantime, Butthead is about to be smashed...he keeps screeching this shrill-awfulness into the night air. I want to crush him. Lots.

*sigh*

I should have just gone out...I'm still awake, and didn't go out at all. Seems somehow wasteful.~8/

Too many cool things happening this weekend. I wish I could do them all, go everywhere and see everyone. I need a clone, dammit.

Comments

[oqidaun.livejournal.com]

wow, talk about imagery. not to pretend that i never get depressed or bummed out, but that's really a sad dialog to have trapped inside your head where you hear it most distinctly.

here's to a day of self affirmation and confidence. no regrets for today.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

here, here.

*clink!*