*sigh*

[thedarksiren2]

Slept on the big ugly-orange squishy couch last night, both because I had no blankets for my bed (they were being washed/ dried) and because it felt like the comfy thing to do. I started watching You've Got Mail as I shnuggled my pillow and the ugly blankies, and for a while I thought insomnia was going to be my dominatrix for the evening. Fortunately, I fell asleep after a while.

Of course, the dog decided that the moment I fell asleep was the best moment to start whining and sniffing my nose with her very wet one.

I love my dog, really I do. She's a good girl, and shows so much emotion it's uncanny. But I really just wanted to sleep so I could get up this morning and take care of some more cleaning since I didn't get to nearly as much of it last night as I had planned.

I didn't wake up until a little bit ago, and have to be at work by noon. *sigh* I won't get home until almost nine tonight, and have to work again at 7AM tomorrow. I will be home by 3:30, 4ish, and then have to pick up Gabe by 5PM at Greyhound. Somewhere in the midst of all this, I need to get groceries too...I am starting to get very flustered and panic-y.

I really just want to work on all the paperwork lying about. It's bugging the fuck out of me. That and my room. Dawndom looks like a tornado hit it, and right after that, an earthquake. This is what happens when I am unhappy and coping...I nest. Things surround me, up to and including piles of clothing on the foot of my bed...it's strangely comforting, and affects no one but me, so it's really quite harmless.

I dunno...I will try today to be happy, but it's feeling like a gloomery day already. I hope I am wrong, and have hope that things will be better as the day progresses. It's my forest fire, after all. I just want the house to start looking like a home again, particulraly since we're having guests the next few weeks.

I mean, I guess it does look like a home, a very lived-in home, but all the clutter is really starting to get to me. Over half of it is mine, and bless wraptboy for tolerating my bad habits. I just...meh.

sorry I am a bummer these past few days, folks. Seems I am hitting the downs.

I will stop to sniff daffodils, however. This may help. If nothing else, I may fall into a fit of violent sneezes, thus becoming comic relief for any and all who observe the event. 'twill be amusing, I assure you.~8P

Comments

[brokenreel.livejournal.com]

Puppies rule, no mater the hour.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

well, I wouldn't give her that much credit last night, but overall she rawks.~8)

[ras-sinister.livejournal.com]

A Tom Hanks/Meg Ryan romantic comedy sounds like a perfect cure for insomnia.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

A few factors go into this logic.

1. The living room is filled with warm colors that I associate to comfort, and I often find myself yawning when I am in the room for extended periods of time.

2. The couch is a relic from when I was a teen. It came with the house we lived in back in VA. I used to take naps on it in the back sunroom. I so miss that.

3. Unless the movie is particularly engaging, I almost always fall asleep when the TV is on. I just don't care about it enough to stay attentive to it.

4. I have been on a particularly hefty emotional rollercoaster the past few days, so putting on anything that wasn't basically mindless and void of the emotions I am presently associating myself to would not have helped the sleeping.

5. Despite their stigmas, both Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan give me happy feelings most of the time. I grew up with them on TV around me, going so far back as soap operas my mother watched (again, there are reasons I hate TV overall~;P) when I was pre-teen.

So it seemed the logical choice. And, apprently, worked for the most part. If the dog had left me be, I might have slept better. Oh well, animals are animals, and I adore Chloe no matter how much of a pain she is.~8)

sorry to hear

[tammy-216.livejournal.com]

hey baby! how ya been? i miss your pretty voice and so does jay. we'd love to han out with you sometime and i miss singing. i havent been out for awhile karaoke-ing... well, i hope you feel better soon and knw that you are loved by many people. have a happy easter sweet cheaks!

Re: sorry to hear

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

it is so weird hearing people call ikkus "Jay." Just not a name I will ever associate with him. LOL

I miss y'all too. I haven't been doing the karaoke gig much, although there is a show on the 24th at Abbasso that I'll be singing at, and it's free! YAY! You guys should definitely come.

I am, overall, doing very well. I just seem to always be in the midst of my *moments* when you come back and read my LJ. LOL

You two have a happy Easter. Give your man a hug for me.

[sharpshinyclaws.livejournal.com]

Its easter! Have some nut roll or paska! No one can be unhappy with paska!

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

lol

wait, is paska that weird custard-like shtuff you fed me last year? Talk about sweetness...yowza...

Hope you're well. Miss hanging out.

[sharpshinyclaws.livejournal.com]

No, paska is the round raisin bread you eat on easter morning.

YAY!

[tammy-216.livejournal.com]

im just typeing for no reason now. i feel like im on good drugs or something. i cant stay in one spot and im not in the least bit tired yet... i gave "ikkus" a hug and he said "aw" cause he thought i was being cute and hugging him for no reason. so i ruined it by saying you told me to hug em. LOL he'll live im sure. he was glad you told me to do it though. babble babble good drugs i babble more. i wish! hahaha! im going crazy for no reason!!! love ya babe.

btw

[tammy-216.livejournal.com]

if hes not "jay" what is he????