thedarksiren2 | sleep? yeah...RIGHT

man, I knew better.
I *SO* knew better.

but but but...*sigh*

Maybe I'll just stay up to make sure

wraptboy gets up on time.
Man, this is gonna HURT at work today.

I am grateful for these things right now:

*The love and companionship of my family and friends.
*Having a roof over my head
*My jaw has stopped hurting for a little while.
*

bindrune needing to use the bathroom before we left My Friends tonight.
*Stupid, annoying panhandler holding us up.
*That I chose not to drink tonight, and instead was the designated driver.

For further reference...

I was driving myself and

wraptboy home from My Friends, talking shop and whatever else we could at 3AM when I noticed the tracks on the highway were odd. I thought maybe I was just tired, and saw lights flashing up ahead, just past the West Blvd. area.

He said it was on the opposite side of the street, so I kept driving, talking, etc.

The car...not ours, the one on the left, against, no carved-into by the concrete median...glass, lights, steam, crushed metal...flash-back 1979, bodies covered by white sheets, a truck and a car, five bodies, flashlights dancing in the field, searching for something, a part of someone...my father's hand holding mine, strange sense of how all-right everything was because I stalled. A few minutes earlier, my father, my brother Billy and I would have been a part of that accident on Olive Highway, Oroville CA.

If Kelly hadn't gone to the bathroom, or if that panhandler hadn't kept nagging, or if the hugs weren't long and wonderful after a fun-filled night...

Jay saw the body, covered, not-quite-right.
I hope he is sleeping peacefully, regardless.
Don't forget the incense, my friend.

I am grateful for my life, for Jay's life.
I am sorry someone died, however, and as we passed the accident this morning, I lifted my hands from the wheel, using my knees for a moment as we slowed down, catching my breath and freeing my palms to let it all go.

Later, the mist and the wind, cool rain showers...it all washed away, blew away...be at peace...deep breath in, push it all out. calm calm calm.

I hope everyone got home safely tonight.
My best and most intensely good ju-ju to everyone out there.

I don't think I will sleep until tonight.
It's all good though...it's all good.