Funny

[thedarksiren2]

how, in exhaustion, I found moderate serenity.

I arrived to work late for no better reason but to risk being fired. yes, I am to that point. That's just the thing though...Mr. Toth hates firing people. He likes to drive them out, inch by inch.

He won't get every inch of me, however. I am not so easily owned.

No, instead of succeeding in creating a chaos-based reaction in my world, just the opposite happened, and my manager *fixed* my situation. That makes two attempts at screwing my world completely up in a matter of weeks only to find the self-destruction was futile.

I just want to say to whatever powers that be, "will ya just work with me here?"

*laughs*

typical paperwork mumbo-jumbo blah-dee-bloo...and then a moment of peculiar Zen. I used to achieve this by going to the laundromat at 2AM with a good book, and $20 worth of quarters. There were rarely people there besides me at that time, but the few who were, they were so interesting to watch and interact with. Oh, and how I miss that time to read! I have stacks of books calling to me, crying out, "Why Dawn? Why have you forsaken us?"

Well, not really, but you get the point.~8)

So I took over dinner clean-up and stood at the kitchen sink which, wonderfully, faces west with a great view. I watched the sky melt from blue to lavendar to fuschia to red and orange, and I realized just how much I miss watching sunsets. I think if it weren't so cold I would drive out to Edgewater and watch one, although the best, by far, were seen when I was a teenager in Yorktown and Williamsburg. I hated Newport News when I left VA, but damn if I don't miss the beauty of the woods down there, the smell of the ocean nearby, my cliff hiding on the beach just below the Yorktown battlefields...

I missed my friend Mike Wank at Arabica in Parma today. I thought maybe he hadn't arrived yet, so I decided to read this little metaphysical mag, and really got into it. I haven't thought about that sort of thing in a long time, but their theme for the month was the seeds we plant in our lives. The metaphor was dealt with very well, and my interest in Yoga is even stronger now.

I heard on the news today that we Americans are eating ourselves to death. We don't eat well either, nor do we exercise.

The problem with dieting is the cost. Seriously, diet food that isn't tainted by aspartame and other icky substances is NOT cheap. Also, health clubs and Yoga classes are pretty pricey. Not to say I won't figure this out, because I will. I just want to explore Yoga more. I think it would do me some good.

Walking out to my car tonight, ten hours after I arrived, I saw all three planets glowing like beacons in the cold night sky. Not even the moon could shut them down...they had purpose tonight, and I tried my best to understand but instead drove home listening to Coast-to-Coast AM with george noory while humming Peter Gabriel's "Sky Blue."

***

We spoke,
and he asked me not to run
I said I didn't have that option
thus, he ran instead.

***

Sleep calls. Sorry if this was blah...just...thoughts...

I think I may have to find some butterfly wings under my pillow if I am to get to my final destination this evening. Here's to hoping for a good entry tomorrow in abstractions.

Comments

[ras-sinister.livejournal.com]

So how is a sunset on the East Coast better than a sunset on the North Coast? The sun wouldn't set over the water but over the land, right? I'm surprised California sunsets weren't your favorites.

You can eat healthy on the cheap if you're willing to cook. You don't need to waste money on diet treats if the substance of your diet consists of good food - a treat is a treat, after all. I have been able to satisfy my chocolate addiction with chocolate soymilk for some time now. It's a tad sugary, but there's still a lot of good stuff in there, and there's plenty of good stuff out there for real sustenance.

This comment could have been a lot longer, actually, because it deals with two of my favorite subjects - geography and nutrition. But I'll spare you the tedium of scrolling to the point.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I do not recall a sunset in CA, probably because I was so young when we moved away. I remember trees and swimming pools, lightning crashing down in our backyard and all the amazing fires that ran rampant in our town. I did not live near the ocean then, but in the mountains, so even if I did remember them, they would be on a different realm than those that set over water.

As for the east coast, it depended upon what shore I stood on. Newport News is a peninsula, surrounded by the likes of the James River. Visiting Yorktown, if I remember correctly (which I may not, considering it's been roughly 13 years since I sat on that cliff), the cliff at least faced west, and I remember seeing the colors in the sky dancing with the water. Granted, over time this place has morphed in my dreams, and has since turned into some kind of sanctuary which may or may not be real, but it feels like a real memory, so I am going with it.~8)

I like the chocolate soy milk. Thing is, my paychecks have been messed up so much over the past few months (my manager is a nimrod in the worst kind of way).

I can cook every other day, but I haven't had the money for groceries overall in a while. Jay has been very kind and tolerant of my situation, and has bought groceries for the two of us for some time. But the things I want, like fruits and veggies, they can become expensive.

Oh, and please never hold back my friend! I love reading your thoughts...you always keep me thinking.~8)

[ras-sinister.livejournal.com]

I've found that one of the cheapest, quickest, and most nutritious foods I can come up with is a sort of muesli made from stuff I get at work. Mix old-fashioned rolled oats (not the quick kind), rye flakes (like rolled oats, but rye), and some of this awesome trail mix we sell. The trail mix is 8.99 a pound, but a little goes a long way in this cereal. The cost of the oats and rye is negligible at 1.09 a pound. The trail mix has sunflower seeds, almonds, hazelnuts, raisins, dates, apples, mulberries, and some other stuff I can't remember. But it's a meal in a bowl (or two - it's good). Lots of protein, lots of fiber, lots of EFAs and complex, slow-burning carbs. And it's all raw (which doesn't mean much to me, but it means everything to some people). Just make sure you chew it for a long time or some of the seeds will pass through undigested.

It's also higher in vitamins and minerals because it's minimally processed and organically grown.

[bindrune.livejournal.com]

excuse me, did you say his name was mike WANK?

*titter giggle guffaw even*

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

indeed!

lol

actually, it's short for his real name, but what he goes by.~8)

[haizle.livejournal.com]

I would like to take yoga classes myself, but you're right- they're pretty expensive.

[djdillydally.livejournal.com]

As far as you wanting to explore yoga more...a good way to go about it is to buy video tapes. A good yoga instructor (on tape) is Rodney Yee. You can get most of his videos for about $10 at The Mustard Seed or natural food stores, call around. And yoga mats aren't that expensive, they shouldn't cost you more than $20 for a decent one. It's just an idea, I stick with the videos and it works for me. Of course, it would be more fun to go to a class, but the $ issue, I know...

[hematite-cross.livejournal.com]

Since trying to diet/eat healthier, our eating budget has increased by about 50%. Sigh.

[thedarksiren.livejournal.com]

I feel ya....*sigh!* indeed...