thedarksiren2 | An interview from riverbank

if you were to eat three people, who would you eat? what type of nurtrishment (i.e. physical, emotional, intellectual, etc traits) would you get from each?

Hmm...this is a great question!

Well, since we are speaking of acquiring others' traits and so forth, I think I will start with Mozart. He's such a bastard, really, even in death. We were just discussing how he must be in a fit of giggles, twitching in his grave (wherever the hell he's buried...no one's ever really been certain) as he watches all aspiring musicians torture themselves trying to figure out what the hell he was doing in his music. He was decadence though, pure, unadulterated decadence, and he gave little to no thought of anyone but himself (see next question for why this matters right now). He just lived through his music, writing symphonies when he was nine years old until the day he died, his very own Requiem unfinished...and he wrote everything, EVERYTHING, in pen. All his music was already written out in his mind, all he had to do was write it out. It is said that he never made errors in his writings either. (for the record, I don't like doing things in pencil. I like to think that, should I make a mistake, it would be like a scar and I have to work with it, no matter what. Makes things more human to me). So I suppose I would want his genius, his musical spigot, and his twisted, selfish humor.

Secondly, another dead person...The Marchesa Luisa Casati. What a wonderful FREAK she was! Completely insane, again with the decadence, and still a muse to artists, designers, writers...she inspires, even in death and despite all the chaos she rendered during her lifetime! She wasn't necessarily an attractive creature, but her charisma...yes, I hunger for that, for her extroverted-ways and audacity.

Thirdly, David Lynch. I want to swallow his brain whole. His mind comes up with some of the most fantastic stories, and very dream-like in nature. I've even had dreams of sex with this man, and I don't fancy him sexually, really. It just happened, and midget tourists took photos in their Hawaiian shirts...freaky shtuff! I just hunger to know his inspiration, where the thoughts come from seeping through...I would attach a nipple to this space, and suckle it until I understood.

sometimes we are too busy being polite to ask or do what we want. what is the one good habit of yours that you'd like to turn bad?

Well, if I am understanding this question correctly, I suppose I'd like to stop worrying so much about how my actions effect the world around me. To be completely self-centered and not worry so much about other people. I try to focus on me, and hell, I may even seem to write like it's all about me, but it never really is. I have been planning my life out since I was about three, yet I don't know that I have done anything solely for my own satisfaction. I suppose this is why I like being on stage so much...it satisfies both my own need to express, to scream out my creativity, yet it serves to entertain, and possibly inspire, others.

tell of a book that you that's deeply affected or enlightened you and how.

Wow. I have read sooo many books. Where to begin?

I could go into many big, intense books, such as Danielewski's House of Leaves, and yes, it has had a very powerful effect on me. But enlightened me? No, it merely woke up sleeping spirits that were waiting for their cue.

I would say that, of all the books that have impacted me deeply, Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet hit me hard as a teen. My mother had a copy hidden away in her bookshelf, an original copyright, as a matter of fact. I took this from her shelf and read through it. I remember thinking that it seemed to speak of values similar to the Bible, only less pushy. They had all been things I had questioned as foolishness on my part at that point in my life. This book vindicated my drive to be a good person, to be kind to others and consider them as I consider myself. I still have that little copy in my room...

Also, I have to mention Shel Silverstein here. Again, it has to do with basic values and beliefs, but I have yet to see a writer put it more plainly than this man did. When I finally have kids, they will have his books all over their room, and know that there is no missing piece, that we each stand tall and independently, yet welcome the company of others who are filled with love and encouragement.

during what emotional are you most creative?

Wow...toughy. Well, considering where I am right now, completely tormented by the muses trying to get out yet restraining them because I have so much "real-life" crap to deal with first, I would have to say just after I have exploded into some form of emotional chop-suey. A friend of mine says this is the third state of three...the first is sanity, then insanity, and finally, unsanity. It's that upper-level, beyond influence yet completely drenched by everything that has recently impacted us.

I am completely unsane right now, and all I wish to do is write and paint and create. Oh, how I loathe my hectic schedule on days like this.

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