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thedarksiren2Some days just fly by too quickly
Like the ones where you want to spend just another five minutes with someone after the initial five, ten, fifteen have passed.
I think I have it bad.
how the hell did this happen?
*sigh*
Just need more time to do what I want to do. That's all.
Today isn't about that though.
No, today is about recovering and wishing others solace on such days.
About not buying shit.
No worries...not only am I broke, I have zero urge to go out into the world of shopping madness. Just time to go be tutored on fugues, join some freaks for a day-after feast, and then sing at karaoke.
tonight is going to be a long night.
I hope my mom and dad make it out.
I don't know of anyone who will be there for certain at this point, but in as much as I don't mind sitting alone at some bars, I just don't want to be alone tonight. My heart is heavy today, incredibly so for a number of reasons I just don't feel like going into right now. I just want the next few days to pass by quickly for someone I love more than I can explain, to give her healing and a good life. I can wish her these things, and offer her my kindness and love and support, but I cannot create this life for her. I think that is the hardest part, really, the helplessness in knowing that I cannot make her situation any better for her.
OK, so I do wish I had more time to talk about it, but I don't. And all my chocolate peeps are MIA. *sigh* I know where they are, I just can't reach them. I am not mad about this so don't you kids go feeling bad, just miss you guys.
In the meantime, it is a Ricky Fitz day outside.
I wonder how many blue bags are dancing in the wind beneath the dolphin-gray sky?
Like the ones where you want to spend just another five minutes with someone after the initial five, ten, fifteen have passed.
I think I have it bad.
how the hell did this happen?
*sigh*
Just need more time to do what I want to do. That's all.
Today isn't about that though.
No, today is about recovering and wishing others solace on such days.
About not buying shit.
No worries...not only am I broke, I have zero urge to go out into the world of shopping madness. Just time to go be tutored on fugues, join some freaks for a day-after feast, and then sing at karaoke.
tonight is going to be a long night.
I hope my mom and dad make it out.
I don't know of anyone who will be there for certain at this point, but in as much as I don't mind sitting alone at some bars, I just don't want to be alone tonight. My heart is heavy today, incredibly so for a number of reasons I just don't feel like going into right now. I just want the next few days to pass by quickly for someone I love more than I can explain, to give her healing and a good life. I can wish her these things, and offer her my kindness and love and support, but I cannot create this life for her. I think that is the hardest part, really, the helplessness in knowing that I cannot make her situation any better for her.
OK, so I do wish I had more time to talk about it, but I don't. And all my chocolate peeps are MIA. *sigh* I know where they are, I just can't reach them. I am not mad about this so don't you kids go feeling bad, just miss you guys.
In the meantime, it is a Ricky Fitz day outside.
I wonder how many blue bags are dancing in the wind beneath the dolphin-gray sky?
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Date: 2003-11-28 10:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-28 01:22 pm (UTC)~8D
you just made my day, Dv8.
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Date: 2003-11-28 01:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-28 02:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-28 10:45 am (UTC)I can't guarantee I'll be there, wherever (I'm semi-bookd) but I do miss you and it'd be wonderful to see (and hear!) you again. . . and maybe make you laugh a little.
Grey days suck. *hugs*
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Date: 2003-11-28 02:10 pm (UTC)