My eyes are crossing like Robert Johnson's path

So, I spent the majority of the night lost in Borders
I only meant to put flyers up there, really.
I actually splurged and bought a CD, something I think that if lemming_radio doesn't have already, he shall be coveting my CD rack soon.

I need new music.

You don't know how hard it has been, holding back the urges to buy CDs. It has always been my biggest money-eater. I like clothes, but I don't like shopping for them. My older sister ruined that for me as a teen, so now when I walk into a thrift store I am more apt to look at the books than the clothing. Nevermind the fact that there aren't any good thrift stores for us fuller-figured bombshells.

No one respects the goddesses like they used to.
*sigh*

enough of that...

I want more cds.
LOTS more.

I love and adore and urge more and more mix-tapes...my gawd! if it weren't for people like bindrune, lemming_radio, sharpshinyclaws and djdillydally I'd have no new music at all. And that. is. sad.
sad sad sad.

Thank you thank you thank you ALL for your gifts of music! They make my days brighter!

Part of it boils down to what I will be playing Wednesday at the Chamber with annabelevil, who, I am sure, has a much better selection at this point than I do. Not like I can do much about it either way, nor do I really need to. I like my music, other people have always seemed to like it, and liked what I spun at TYR. It's been two years though...two years. Jeezum. That really was such a fun time...as long as Mr. Komlody was absent, anyway. Pud.

What I really wish I could do is spin vinyl. I have NO CLUE how to do this, but I love watching the guys over at the Molten Cafe spin the downtempo and jazz-fusion. I could sleep there sometimes. Nevermind the chocolate martinis that are my weakness! *drool*

I just know that anything near to creating music-oriented makes me giddy inside, and nothing can penetrate that anymore. Six months ago it could, and it did. Not now. Focus-13, I say.

Of course, what I say and what I do are often-times the exact opposite. Silly self-destructive behavior patterns; self-defeating and abusive, perhaps just neglectful. I am recognizing it all for what it is though, so that is a good thing, right?

Half.com may be in order.
or not.
~8/

Maybe sleep...unsound sleep, but sleep.

I have had some of the most unnerving transformative dreams ever in the past two weeks. I keep shifting shapes, transforming in the most extreme ways. I hope these are good signs.

so yeah, I spent hours now reading through my friends list.
I cannot read anything more.
Some of you got responses
others will soon enough...

just trying to stay active, avoid the glowing boxes.
They'll consume your soul before you consume your young.

maybe I should consult ras_sinister on that last thought. hmm...